Wednesday, February 16, 2011
The farm was not big, just big enough. We had a personal attachment to every animal. Seeing them leave the farm and not with us was very hard. Several of them had been born on the farm. We watched them grow up, we watched them give birth. They provided us with food and income to survive. It was hard work but we loved it. The kid loved it.
The hardest was finding a place for the milk cows, the heart of our farm, the animals that we had the deepest connection to. Watching them leave the farm was the hardest thing I think we have done so far. Our dream, all of our work, all of what we had identified ourselves with, everything was gone. The anger is the hardest thing to deal with.
We needed to do something, we could not go on like this. We want to farm, we want what we had. But at the moment those are not options. What we have is our family and what we are working on is Chuck's education. Those became our focus. We decided to get out of farming for the moment. Allow Chuck to focus on school and us to focus on our family.
Looking back we can see the red flags, and really in all honesty we could see them before we just chose to ignore them.
We are moving forward and someday in the future the dream that we had, the life that we were so close to having will be ours.
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